I have been putting off this post for quite some time. The last post caused so much drama in family circles I wondered if it was worth it. It took many months to realize that I am worth it. Family can choose to not understand my Asperger’s syndrome, why I meltdown, most have walked away and not looked back. I continue on this educational quest learn about Adult Aspergers, Agenesis of the Corpus Collosum, acute panic and anxiety and epilepsy and how all combined they are in my life but I am trying to not let them run my life. I do not remember having so many meltdowns than in the last two years. I take enough meds that should put a horse to sleep yet sleep eludes me. I try to follow a healthy diet which was easier on food stamps, but I was cut off. Neighbors have given me a $2o here, a $10 there, and a very caring cousin gave me $100 last week, but my bills which were all under control are so far behind I have no idea how to get them current. Insert panic attack. Bring on meltdown. Interviews have been coming, did I mention I haven’t worked in 16 months due to a layoff? However, my panic is so sky high thinking I HAVE to get this job, I am a total wreck before I get there until they call. How do other adults with Aspergers manage? Is your family understanding? Do you frequently meltown? What coping mechanisms do you have? I use Klonopin for anxiety but it’s not helping. My social outlet is the dog park and when I can manage it, church. I would like to blog full time about Aspergers and epilepsy and am trying to navigate that too. I look forward to your comments and plan to blog much more frequently.